Shortly after Maia was admitted to the hospital, a new friend Diane (we met the day before Maia's admission when I delivered a care package to her and daughter Lily here at SMH) shared something that came to mind again overnight. There is fact and there is truth.
The fact is that Maia is here in the hospital. She has suffered a severe insult to her brain and we don't know what the long term effects of that are going to be. It is a fact that she is not going to be the same child coming home as she was.
The truth is found in God's word. He is also here with us in the hospital. He has never left our side (Deut 31:6). He knows what EVERY day of Maia's life looks like (Ps 139:16). My God is bigger than anything that can happen on this earth (Heb 1:10-12). He will sustain us as we travel this new path in our lives (Ps 62: 5-8).
And while I can not change the facts, I can remember the truths and claim them for our lives and our future.
My friends, as always I am humbled by your words of encouragement and support. I wanted to write something in response to each of your comments, but things are kind of crazy here in the room right now (Maia's jabbering away, Matthew's busy with all of the fun stuff to check out - lol) so I will try to do that later. But know that each of you touch my heart - deeply and profoundly.
Yes...I do know that Maia would likely not be alive if she had suffered this infection in Ukraine. That thought was with me last night - my initial thought had been that she may not have had this infection there. But then it occurred to me... Satan was trying to fill my mind with doubt and uncertainty.
Who knows what Maia's circumstances would be if we had not listened to God's call to be her parents? She could have endured even more severe illnesses and she would have done so without family and friends who adore her. Thinking about what she endured in the first year of my life alone breaks my heart. One of my dear friends reminded me that Maia was in the orphanage because her birth parents were not willing to accept the uncertain prognosis she was given and did not feel able to meet her medical needs. God chose Mark and I to be her parents KNOWING that we could provide everything Maia would need. Knowing that there would be times of sadness, fear, and uncertainty but the He would see us through them. That He would bring the right people and resources into our lives to support and care for her. God knew that we would love her beyond compare, He chose US to be her parents and what a wonderful privilege that is.